Nothing to say

I slept 2 hours, then i got back to working on art, art, but i need to play a game. However i'm super tired, so something easy...

Closure.

Started @: 16:10
Stopped @: 17:06

:O i didn't play for a full hour, but close enough!

I loved this game, it reminded me a lot of Oddworld, it's a 2d side scrolling puzzle platformer.

Thats it for today, my journal entries on deviantart track what i'm doing as an artist, but right now i really need sleep.

I guess a bit of a speech maybe.

I am a monster. When I was born instead of taking the life of my mother, I condemned her to eternal suffering, and what for? a nagging, whining, annoying and worst of all evil child which she eventually grew to hate.

Since kindergarten the people around me viewed me as a monster, by the time i was 12 adults started to fear me as a monster. I am a monster, but at the age of 14 I finally learned deception, I learned to hide my monstrosity, but this didn't feel very good, so at age 18 i learned to hide it in plain sight, i advertise it. If i talk about it so loudly how bad can it be right?

But ever since the early days i always wanted to be a specific kind of monster, another kind of monster. I am a born, natural sexual predator but luckily I have chained myself down enough to limit the damage of that to only a certain few people while i was growing up. But i always wanted to be another kind of monster, i hated my sexual and so human desires with a passion, and still do. What i wanted to become was a beautiful monster, and on the inside i have successfully become exactly that. But on the outside i'm still the ugly monster i always used to be, i'm finally starting to work towards becoming the monster i always wanted to be, but i've only got 10 years to succeed. However, I know that i can and will do in 10 years what i couldn't in the past 20, I will consume and absorb this pathetic wretched monster I used to be in order to craft out a new, better monster. A monster that people won't fear for it's aggressive nature, but envy for its strengths and it's freedom.

I will become my own god, in 10 years there won't be anything about myself to fix, and very few things to improve. I will be the closest thing to perfect humankind has ever known, and if i just so happen to have financial success i will throw everything i've got at assisting the next generation of humans to surpass the current, pathetic and wretched generation of humans, I will nudge them into the right direction to surpass the godlike me. I will show them how to surpass not just the current generation of humans, but also the current generation of monsters.

Ah, I like writing stuff like that, i meant every word, you don't have to believe it, it doesn't have to hold meaning to you, but that little piece of text very nicely explains my current mental state.